a quote from my favorite author

“The most solid advice, though, for a writer is this, I think: Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive, with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell, and when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.”

-William Saroyan, The Daring Young Man on the Flying Trapeze

Sunday, October 16, 2016

CELEBRATION 10.15.16 (an update)

Since my previous post...my dad's surgery was canceled because test results showed his cancer had spread. 

He would keep his voice, but lose hope in having a cancer-free future.

Then, I was shown the power of hope. He was told about an experimental drug that might be able to prolong his life despite the inevitability of cancer. The possibility of this new medicine gave us hope. I clung tight to the hope and wondered whether the luxury of hope was more valuable than an effective medicine.

At his next visit to the hospital for tests, he was prepared for the worst. Doctors got real with him and explained that if the experimental drug did not work, he would have about 6 months to a year to live. 

It was at this point in the day that I called him to see how he was doing. I have been trying to let go of control over his care and allow my uncle to take over more of the responsibility now that school is back in session.  

He told me the latest news. He was waiting for the doctor to give him the results of the scan he had that morning. He knew it would be more bad news and sounded utterly dejected. 

When the doctor came him, he put me on speaker phone, so I could listen in on the meeting.  

"I got the results from this morning's test," the doctor started, "and I am baffled."

My dad's scan showed that he is completely cancer-free.  This test contradicted previous tests that pointed to the exact opposite outcome--that the cancer had spread.  

Since then, my dad has had additional tests that support the cancer-free news.  His cancer is in remission for now. 

And that is something to celebrate!